A couple days ago already

So I’ve come to an important realization that I need be transparent about what I am already living and going to live here….

I’ve just come back from a small tour of the main parts of Tamera.  Only a fraction of what is actually going on here, but enough to stir in me a deep questioning with strong emotional stirrings underlying.

This place is truly awe-some.  What they are doing here is profound for humanity at this time.  The scale of the experiment is vast: from energy systems development village to the local Political Ashram learning centre, from the water retention systems to the living food systems everywhere.  From the school for children to the textile, herbal and pottery workshops run by the elder women.  To the stone circle cathedral channelled by the founder, Sabine Leibstels to the Aula gathering hall where we gathered this morning for Sunday service and the opening of the Global Love School. 

I am moved and dumb-founded and at loss because I so desire to be living something this beautiful; this living dream that is so intricately thought out and cared for by such a large network of people.  My current world is so utterly fragmented and yet holds so much potential…

Where and how to even begin something like this?  Do I dare to dream into something even a fraction this big?  Do I have allies who dare to dream even a fraction of a fraction of this big?

Yes!  I want this!  Yes! I want to co-create this!  Yes! The world and my world need this!

And I feel such a deep helplessness in this moment.  Like a child coming to her parents, crying, “Help me Mama. Help me Papa”.  Take me by the hand and show me what to do. 

Last night we celebrated Beltane in such a gorgeous way.  Prayer, drumming and song while men and women, children and elders jumping over the fire together to symbolize the fertility of polarities connecting.

Tonite the 80 people attending and holding the Global Love School will gather at the stone circle and divide into men and women to camp out and spend 24 hours together.    

At this time, all I can really express is that I know I have come to the right place at the right time for me.   I am beyond grateful for this opportunity and beyond words to express what to do with this new information.  Thank you for holding some piece of it with me!