Global Love School wrap and Community Course sprout...

Wow. So it's the third/fourth day of the month-long community course here at Tamera.
I want to share some notes from the end of the Global Love school and also share what is just begining to sprout now.  I had 5 days 'off' in between the 2 courses/events, during which I worked in the cafe here in the afternoons and relaxed during the day.  The cafe was a great place to land and I do feel that I am more landed now than throughout the love school.

Some simple notes (especially about the healing biotopes plan)
in no particular order:

What does it take to heal love?
No expectation of pleasing.  The real truth.
notice what is going on in the self.  Offer gratitude to the partner for staying with their own truth.
In partnership, lovership, co-creation: find a common commitment to a larger goal.
In the question of truth in love, content is important: Does this serve LOVE?

Biotope Plan exploration:
Silence allows celebration
The question of place and diversity
Futility in labels, beauty in ancestry
What is the Global context of this creation?
System change.  What does it mean?
Listening to and with the land.
Stay with the questions.
Commit to the questions.
What is needed?
What can we offer?
Re-unification with life on all levels.
Right relationship anchored in a global heart.
Ask.
Take a breath.
Ask again.
Ask a 3rd time.
Be aware of excitement and look for the passion underneath.
Allow Eros and Agape to inform each other.
DARE to see the healed picture.  Hold the rest from that place.

What am I taking away from this time of the Global Love School?
The biggest thing is to keep learning how to listen.  To share stories and witness how this creates resonance in the field.
Keep connecting to the 'Sacred Matrix'
There is SO much that happened and is moving in me and I hope that over this next course I will have the time and space to continue to articulate the importance of what I am learning. I feel the importance of this time is to deepen my commitment to the larger goal of peace within and connect to the goal of global peace.  I know that community plays a HUGE role in this.  And I commit to continue to create containers where people can express that which has been repressed in a safe way.  To look for my own places of ease while finding my edge of healing and evolution.
The culture here is so different from anything I've experienced.  Especially my time with the people who live here.  To really hold each other in groups with what is arising for people.  

Big work.

The community course is beautiful so far with representatives from Germany, Switzerland, Syria, Israel, Brazil, Netherlands, Belgium, US, Canada...  A sweet group of about 25 of us.  We arise at 7am to share personal practice time.  Talks called the 'Godpoint' on spirituality at 8am. Breakfast, Karma Yoga, Geistic talks and discussion, Theater, Forum practice, power walks....
Opening ceremony in the stone-circle where I received the gift of the connection with the 'Teacher' stone.  (For the Love School I had the Healing stone) -

Oh!! there is a blast for now.  And so much more.  I will write more soon...

Day 6 (a couple days ago once again)

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Global Love School, Day 6

Yes, so already day 6!  And so much to share…  A very small fraction of what is going on for me…

Since the last time:

We separated into men and women’s groups for the first 24 hours.  Camping out together.  Sharing dreams.  Names.  Age groups.  Intentions.  Insight from the land and spirits.  Creating solidarity amongst the women.  Before we left the space, we created a song to share with the men on our reconnection.

This time apart ended with a beautiful sharing in the stone cathedral.  (on top of a hill in the company of 96 archetypal stones) So raw to face the men from across this wide-open space of the circle. 

After the circle closed, sharing space with John and Ian in our dreaming of Tamera West….

The next day we chose our groups.

Creating a healing Biotope was mine.  (Community, love and sexuality another group, Terra Deva-connection to earth spirits the third group and arts: working with clay the final)  A bold stand to be taking here.  Also the group with many of the Americans, whom I am getting to know.  They talk a lot about the California biotope, and so I find myself in this place of unknown.  It will take so much to manifest so big a dream and for sure these Californians have the will and the juice.  Great to have Ian here, who is keen on something on Salt Spring.  The dream the dream the dream…

I honestly don’t remember all of what happened in what order… It has been SO full! 

Each day we have the ‘geistic hour’.

There was a talk on Eros and Agape from Sabina and Dieter (founders of Tamera).  The original sin as described by Dieter, in my own interpretation: casting Eros out of the garden of Eden.

There was a talk on Truth in love with Sabina, Benjamin and Vera. 

There was a talk on something that came up in forum practice: what about this hatred of the mother by the son?

Today

Forum practice in our small group and with the whole group.  Amazing! What is being stirred in this space is so deep.   Very archetypal issues. 

The son who hates his mother: a symbol of the patriarchy (or the poor-son-archy) The comfort/complacency in our current lives.  Why change anything?

The animal/HUGE sexual urge of the man turns violent, turns into war.

The self discovery through freedom in love. 

The hero.

The lost sexuality.

We share dreams in the morning.

Relate our personal issues with the bigger issues. 

My birthday was an amazing day.  Very full.  Celebratory.  I received a lot of love and care.  A beautiful birthday song with the whole group and Gabriel, and Argentinian who lives in Israel and dear friend of Amit, leading with great passion.

I actually got drunk at the bar at the end of it! 

Yesterday was the hardest day so far. 

We started in the Bodega – the temple of love.  The space opened to ask for what you dare.  I asked for something with someone I look up to here.  The experience was new, uncomfortable and brought up many questionings of myself…

I took a dish shift after lunch and hurried to the afternoon session.

Very stirring forum.

Then having dinner with an older man from Israel who lives on the border of Gaza: hearing his story of this. 

Then to the ‘Political Café’, where we learned about the refugee situation in Greece from some people from here and there that went to help out this winter. 

HEAVY!!  Wow.

So grateful that today we actually got outside to do some work on the land… 

So I am in awe.  Riding the waves.  SO much being stirred in me.  I am in a washing machine spin cycle. 

Once again I say, I want this!  I want to take my place in this global mission for peace.  A small place perhaps.  But a place….  And waiting for my chance to speak in this place. 

To be continued…

A couple days ago already

So I’ve come to an important realization that I need be transparent about what I am already living and going to live here….

I’ve just come back from a small tour of the main parts of Tamera.  Only a fraction of what is actually going on here, but enough to stir in me a deep questioning with strong emotional stirrings underlying.

This place is truly awe-some.  What they are doing here is profound for humanity at this time.  The scale of the experiment is vast: from energy systems development village to the local Political Ashram learning centre, from the water retention systems to the living food systems everywhere.  From the school for children to the textile, herbal and pottery workshops run by the elder women.  To the stone circle cathedral channelled by the founder, Sabine Leibstels to the Aula gathering hall where we gathered this morning for Sunday service and the opening of the Global Love School. 

I am moved and dumb-founded and at loss because I so desire to be living something this beautiful; this living dream that is so intricately thought out and cared for by such a large network of people.  My current world is so utterly fragmented and yet holds so much potential…

Where and how to even begin something like this?  Do I dare to dream into something even a fraction this big?  Do I have allies who dare to dream even a fraction of a fraction of this big?

Yes!  I want this!  Yes! I want to co-create this!  Yes! The world and my world need this!

And I feel such a deep helplessness in this moment.  Like a child coming to her parents, crying, “Help me Mama. Help me Papa”.  Take me by the hand and show me what to do. 

Last night we celebrated Beltane in such a gorgeous way.  Prayer, drumming and song while men and women, children and elders jumping over the fire together to symbolize the fertility of polarities connecting.

Tonite the 80 people attending and holding the Global Love School will gather at the stone circle and divide into men and women to camp out and spend 24 hours together.    

At this time, all I can really express is that I know I have come to the right place at the right time for me.   I am beyond grateful for this opportunity and beyond words to express what to do with this new information.  Thank you for holding some piece of it with me!

Day 1.5 Tamera Healing Biotope

Oh life!  How grateful I am for this adventure.  I still have no idea what really to expect...

For now the sun is shining and I am taking this moment away from other computer work to write a little update.

What a long time since I've blogged!! Not sure how I feel about it now.  How public do I want to be about what I am living?  But there are so many loved ones that would love to know what is alive for me.  And so... here goes!

I am somewhat arrived here in southern Portugal - about an hour and a half by train south of Lisbon, near a town called Funcheira.  The land here is so sweet in it's spring clothing.  Gentle.  Old feeling.  Pines, old deciduous trees that I have yet to identify, bamboo, spring flowers, grasses and pollens.  Rolling hills.  Sandy soils.

I slept all afternoon on my arrival.  Got up to eat and went back to bed.  It got quite cold in my tent last night and I dreamt about seeking out an extra blanket all night.
I went for a run in my bare feet this morning and a swim in one of the many ponds/lakes this afternoon.  I'm basically waiting for it all to start tomorrow and clearing my plate of as much admin stuff in the meantime.  (preparation for Dance Temple's May newsletter, getting 'Chrysalis Camp' 2016 ready for take off, putting my phone back on seasonal hold, registration for the 'Community Course' here, and for the Art of Mentoring this summer).

Tonite the whole community celebrates Beltane...
and I did get an extra blanket ;)

More juice soon :)

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