I am now back in Montreal, but not for long. It's time for this little seed to float to her next home. I'm not sure where that will be; for now I plan to spend the summer in BC, some in Nelson and some on Salt Spring. I've never been to Nelson before and I have been looking forward to checking it out for quite some town now. I get the sense I may just fall in love with it there.
I've also been invited to come back to Costa Rica for more than one exciting project. Ninoska - the owner and soul of 'Estudio los Almendros' and I had a great connection and may end up collaborating more. Also, friends of mine are building a community nearby and Ozlem, the owner of the organic restaurant in town offered to have me care-take the resaurant while she goes away. Hmm. How I love the climate and aliveness of that place! We shall see.
For now I am waiting for my heart to truly say 'yes' to the next thing. Floating is not that appealing to me as a matter of fact - I want to go forwards with direction and meaning. Saturn is returning as is another cycle I have been in my whole life till now. (so says my astrologer friend Eve) So change is in store whatever the case. Life is full of opportunities, but I am waiting for my heart to magnetize the one that makes it sing. The trip to Costa Rica was truly a transformational one and made me realise how important warmth, ease and happiness are to me now. Montreal has been wonderfully fun and full of important lessons and growth. In the past few years, I've discovered parts of myself that I never knew were there. It's also been a struggle here, a glimpse into the weight of things, and I am longing for brighter lighter depths.
In the midst of all this Matthew and I have acknowledge that we need to loosen the reins of our partnership, which has been slowly happening since he came down to Costa Rica. It is a confusing and beautiful process, as the depth of our love rings true to me all-ways. For now we are just living it one day at a time, gracefully, vulnerably and honestly. I have also moved out of our apartment together for the remainder of my time in Montreal, and my space here with my good friend Nadine is a sunny and peaceful sanctuary for transition.
A few pics of our time together in Costa:
Oh Mateo! You are such a bright star in my life!
Then there is work. Then there is dance. The work continues and grows - I'm starting to learn more design stuff which is exciting, but still somewhere I know this work isn't for me.
I continue to dance - flamenco has been incredibly satisfying - authentic movement on my own is also a big part of my sanity. Where am I going with this? I don't know. It's a research into my soul for now and doesn't seem to be leading to big productions, though I did perform on several occasions while I was a way, they were all pretty casual. Voice work and singing seems to be coming more to the forefront and it scares and excites me to think of continuing with that.
So! there it is in a nutshell. I enjoy reflecting on my life in this way, so remind me if you enjoy reading...
